Song Analysis
Song: From A Balance Beam
Artist: Bright Eyes
Album: There is No Beginning to The Story EP

Record Lable: Saddle Creek
Release Date: May 7, 2002
Written By: Conor Oberst
There’s a man holding a megaphone, he must have been the voice of God
The bystanders claimed they saw angels flying up and down the block
Well, they must have been attached to wires
I’d seen one laying in the lawn with a broken arm, so I called 9-1-1
Well that’s one less founded opinion
One more cause for a dispute
So the street filled like a basin up with cameras and their crews
And they washed away the rumors leaving just the concrete truth
It was a spectacle…
No, I, I mean a miracle
So then I fell like that girl from a balance beam
A gymnasium of eyes all were holding on to me
I lifted one foot to cross the other and I felt myself slipping
It was a small mistake…
Sometimes that’s all it takes
Now I’m staring at my wrist, hoping that the time is right
When the planets will align
There’ll be no planets to align
Just the carcass of the sun
And little painted marbles spinning senseless through an endless black sky
And so it never started and it will never stop just like I am and you are
It was in a foreign hotel bathtub I baptized myself in change
And one by one I drowned all of the people I had been
I emerged to find the parallels were fewer; I was cleansed
I looked in the mirror
And someone new was there.
But, I was as helpless as a chess piece when I was lifted up by someone’s hand
And delivered from the corner my enemies had got me in
But in all of my salvation I still felt imprisoned in-side that holding cell, that is myself.
So I wait for the day when I’ll hear the key, as it turns in the lock
And the guard will say to me, “Oh my patient prisoner you’ve waited for this day and finally, you are free.. you are free.. you are freezing.”
Now I’m staring at the sun, waiting for it to explode
Because the day is gonna come, don’t know when but it will come
And we’ll finally know the way out of here
And I’ll throw away this wrinkled map
And my chart of stars and compass, cracked
And I’ll climb that tree all wet with sap to avoid the hungry beasts below
I’ll cut out my lover’s tongue and sing
Of a graveyard gray and a garden green
And we won’t have to worry no more
No we won’t have to wonder again
About how this song or story ends
About how this song and story will end
I chose to analyze the song “From a Balance Beam” written and performed by Conor Oberst, more popularly know as “Bright Eyes”. The song is from the Album, “There is No Beginning to the Story EP” The Record company under which Conor is signed is Saddle Creek. The album was released on May 7, 2002. I chose this song because, for me, it has multiple meanings, all of which reveal different aspects of human nature. It touches on people’s beliefs and how both the media and religion influence them. It also references changing one’s self, and how often we can become prisoners in and of ourselves. The visual pictures painted are somewhat apocalyptic, which I believe is part of what makes the song so incredibly influential.
I believe that the goal of the song is to enlighten people, to help them understand why they are the way they are, and to perhaps help them realize some of the flaws with their thought system and help them change. While Oberst sings the song in the first person, the lyrics allow the listener to place him or herself in the visual picture he paints and that is a critical aspect in how powerful the song can be.
The song starts out by painting a very clear visual picture of the streets full of both bystanders and news crews. In the very first line, “[t]here was a man holding a megaphone, he must have been the voice of God” , he is already suggesting that we take what the media says so seriously, it is like we are hearing the words from God himself. He goes on to say that the news crews came to “wash away the rumors leaving just the concrete truth.” Again he is illustrating how just because the media says something, we automatically believe that it’s the “concrete truth”. He makes it very clear that he is cynical towards religion when he says that the ‘angels’ “must have been attached to wires”. When he says “it was a spectacle, no, I, I mean a miracle” he shows how he originally believed the scene to be nothing more than a mere “spectacle”, but he changes his statement to say it was a “miracle”, because that’s what the media made it out to be. This not only demonstrates how the media influences our opinions, but also how it pushes religion on us, specifically Christianity in the United States.
In the next section of the song he compares himself to a girl on a balance beam. In today’s world it can seem that someone is always watching, just waiting to find a flaw or a mistake. “It was a small mistake, sometimes that’s all it takes” is an incredibly powerful line. He is indicating that even the smallest of mistakes can be magnified and can sometimes even lead to the destruction of something, whether it be a reputation, a relationship, or even a brief moment of glory.
In the last two sections of the song he touches upon changing one’s self for the better, and also finding religion within one’s self, especially when he says “I baptized myself in change, and one by one I drowned all of the people I had been”. He is saying that not only was he able to change himself but he did so in a religious way. The way he says he “drowned” all the people that he used to be is interesting because it’s like he is saying that the people he used to be were not worthy of the Catholic religion. People in general are not recognized as being a member of the Catholic religion until they have been baptized. People accept that they are not “good enough” as they are, and are willing to go through the steps necessary to become someone they think will be better, just because that’s what someone tells them.
When he says “But in all of my salvation I still felt imprisoned in-side that holding cell, that is myself” he is saying that even though he has now been cleansed and become a new person worthy of the Catholic religion, he’s still only himself, only mortal, still trapped within his body, just as we are all trapped. He says that he is waiting for the day when the door will be unlocked and he will be freed from the prison (which ultimately is mortality, his body). He makes a point to mention that the “guard” will make note of the fact that he has been patient (especially with the suicide reference in the beginning of the song: “Now I’m staring at my wrists”), however he has become cold and distant while waiting to be freed, just as many people who are waiting for salvation grow colder and more distant with time.
I believe that every aspect of this song is true. The media is constantly in our faces telling us what to believe, what to think, how to feel, and twisting the truth to better suit someone’s “needs”. We live in a world where we are more apt to believe lies, or at least half-truths, because that is what is presented to us. We tend to just believe whatever is placed before us. When we do in fact have our own opinion about something, we don’t have a hard time forgetting it to accept the one that the media places before us.
There are countless different newspapers, news stations, and even news wielding magazines, all of which contain different versions of the same story, some making one side look good, and others doing the same for the opposite side. No matter which way you spin a story, there is one inevitable truth; it’s biased. The problem is that we don’t really care that it’s biased; we just believe it because it’s available. Humans in general tend to be creatures of habit. For example, if someone watches Fox News, they probably aren’t going to turn to another news station to hear what’s going on in the world, they’re going to listen to what Fox News tells them is going on, regardless of whether or not it is the truth.
The media also throws religion in our faces, particularly Christianity. Christianity is everywhere we look, it’s on our money, it’s even in our pledge of allegiance. The problem with this is that not everyone follows the Christian Faith. I know I personally used to, but decided to rethink it. I believe that everyone needs something to believe in and I would never in any way try to convince anyone to give up their religion based on my own opinions, for I am not educated in the aspects of the majority of the religions that exist. I know that I gave up Christianity because I felt like I was being forced into a cult-like ritualistic religion.
I do not believe that people should have to be baptized in order to be recognized as belonging to a certain faith. To me, baptism is just what Oberst made it out to be in the song, drowning the person you are. I think that the Christian Faith is too critical of people. Baptism is like an initiation; who you are before you are baptized is not good enough to be a Christian, and only after you are cleansed can you truly be recognized as a keeper of the faith.
I also believe that Christianity forces people to act a certain way for fear that they will not be accepted into life everlasting if they do not follow all the rules laid down before them. With all the promises of eternal life and heaven, people can’t help but feel trapped within their own bodies, just waiting for something better. Not only do they feel trapped, but they also feel helpless because the Christian faith instills the fear in them that if they do not live without sin then they may not make it to heaven, or eternal life, instead, they might burn in the pits of hell for all eternity.
Because these people can end up feeling trapped within themselves, and helpless, they can often times become cold or bitter. I know plenty of older people who say they wish they could “just hurry up and die already” to get it over with. They think that they’re going off to something so much better than what they already have, and they don’t really take the time to appreciate all the life and beauty that surrounds them here on earth with the rest of the living people. The problem with this is not only that they believe death will bring them more satisfaction than life can, but also that they want to rush death.
Christianity pulls yet another cruel joke on it’s believers; death might be a whole lot better than life if you have followed all the rules and confessed all your sins and repented for them, but if you get sick of life, you still have to stick it out because suicide will get you a one way ticket straight to hell. I do not believe that suicide is ever the answer, but I can honestly say that with all the hype about death freeing you from your mortal body into an everlasting world of paradise, I can definitely understand why some people would think that to be their only way out.
This song, when listened to on a deeper level, really reveals a lot about human nature. It shows us that we are easily influenced and will believe whatever is placed before us. We are willing to change our opinions based on what the media tells us is true. We can be so influenced by religion that we are willing to abandon who we are just to be accepted and have a chance to find something better in the afterlife. We can often times feel trapped within ourselves, and while that is not always a result of religion (because some people do not practice any religion), it is still part of human nature to want to find something better and feel “free”.