Frustrations November 12, 2009

I have been to countless doctors and had countless tests to get a diagnosis for my seizures… with NO luck.

My GP thinks I’m nuts… My first neurologist was willing to try medication but he moved away and left me in the hands of another neurologist. THIS neurologist suggested I go to therapy. I beg your pardon, sir, but I’ve already got my shit together, thanks. I don’t need to pay someone to tell me how I’m feeling and why. I think I’ve got that under control far more than many of the other people in this world. Do you get some kind of a commission for referring people to therapists? jeeze.

My current neuro not only thought I should try therapy, but also that I should continue “dancing” (as I told him I like to dance for fun [ like to footloose!]).

I don’t have a problem with dancing, not at all, in fact, I was doing it today. And guess what… I had a SEIZURE.

Everyone who thinks it is caused by my excessive caffeine consumption… I haven’t had ANY caffeine in OVER two weeks, so…. I don’t think that’s it.

Today is the second day in a row during which I’ve had a seizure. I had one yesterday, too. And the past few times I’ve had them, it’s only been once per day rather than 5-7 times a day.

I guess that’s good, but god effing damned if I’m not frustrated as all hell.

I’m going to the hospital for 5 days in mid December for a Video EEG. I will be confined to my hospital room… hooray.

I’m just SO frustrated that it has been almost a YEAR since these things started and STILL no one can give me any answers.

And no, I can’t avoid the activites I’m doing when they happen… If I did that I would have to stop: Dancing, Showering, Looking at Calendars, Attending Class, Running Errands, Getting Juice, Entering my Kitchen and/or Bathroom.

Just not practical I tell you!

 

ughhhh….. sorry, needed to vent.

 

This Is It November 9, 2009

I went to see Michael Jackson’s This is It tonight. It was very well done given the circumstances under which it was created. Since it was never intended for public viewing, I’d say they did a fantastic job of putting it together FOR the public. It would have been a great tour.

I know there are a lot of mixed feelings about Michael Jackson and things he may or may not have done, but all those things aside, the man had a great message that a lot of people overlook. Man in the Mirror has ALWAYS been one of my favorite songs because it’s got a great message that most people forget about, and that’s sad.

I’m not sure how much longer the film is going to be in theaters, but I highly recommend you see it, regardless of how you feel about Michael Jackson. It’s an experience and if you take the time to pay attention to the message, you just might walk away a better person.

 

Autumn November 4, 2009

The Colors of Autumn

(Even when there is beauty around us, sometimes we just want to curl up and die)

(There are volumes in the forest no one reads out loud)

The Orange Juice Extravaganza November 3, 2009

You’ve seen BadBadGrandma… now it’s time to get the back story. I present to you: The Orange Juice Extravaganza.

My Disclaimer is this: I only filmed the FIRST part of this short movie. It was a three person project and we each filmed a different section. If the editing is shaky in the other 2 sections, it’s because the footage wasn’t adequate, but I did the best I could. Keep in mind people, this is from my FRESHMAN year of college. First Video Production class EVER. So don’t be too harsh.

Aj Scrapbook Essentials Logo November 3, 2009

Here are a few of the Headers/Logos that I created for AJ Scrapbook Essentials.

 

^^Original Design ^^

^^The Greens they liked better^^

^^Logo for their participation in *The Reindeer Roundup^^

 

The top image was the original header I created. They chose to go with darker shades of green, though.

*You can learn all about the Reindeer Roundup by visiting their BLOG listed below.

 

AJ Scrapbook Essentials DOT Com

AJ Scrapbook Essentials BLOG

Halloween, a poem October 31, 2009

I wrote this last year just as a fun project with Heidi. We picked a bunch of “halloween” words and then wrote poems… this is mine

Halloween

There is a night called All Hallows Eve
A night where all things make-believe
Come alive to haunt the community
Driven by their sacred unity
The Ghosts take over trashy homes
While each Zombie aimlessly roams
The streets searching for flesh
And the Vampires do their best
To avoid the light and hunt for blood
While Witches stir up their magic mud
And Ghouls chase the little ones searching for sweets
But they only find tricks and never treats
The Werewolves howl at the moon
And the night will end too soon
For these monsters who only live one night
Their night to cause endless fright
But when the sun begins to rise
They must return to their disguise
Just imaginary creatures existing in tales
And the good 364 prevails.

K.M.
10-18-08

Bad Grandma October 28, 2009

This is an old video… before my editing skills really kicked in… so some of kind of sucks….. but I re-edited it a little bit. It’s hilarious if you LISTEN to the words of the song while watching

Starring my wife, and me (as the old lady)

Grief through Art October 22, 2009

something I made pretty quickly…just because I needed to do something and I’m not ready to write about it yet

Anthem of the Angels October 22, 2009

Anthem of the Angels — Breaking Benjamin

There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I keep holding onto you
But I can’t bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye

Rest In Peace Grandma

Another Angel to look after me.

I love you

Rest In Peace October 22, 2009

Rest in Peace Grandma

10-22-09

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I love you so much… I’m glad you’re not suffering anymore

and fuck you, cancer.